What do I do when I miss you? How do I come to terms with your sudden death. I really need to talk to you baba. I miss you so much it hurts.
I still have your phone on my speed dial. But you are no longer there to answer my calls.
Wish I could reach out and talk to you somewhere.
On the 40th day, I had a dream. So vivid, I thought it was real.
I felt like you were really there talking to me. You were sitting on the floor, I was at your side facing you. You talked about "Jama3at AlQuran ElKareem" I was full of tears.
You were wearing a green shirt, and smiling.
You said: "Didn't you ask to see me?, that's why I came"
I cried a river for you. I cry a lifetime.
You said: "Didn't you want Seif to sit on my lap, that's why I came"
And I then saw my son Seif sitting on my lap.
Was this dream just wishful thinking? Was a message to tell me you are ok, you are happy? What was the significance of the green shirt? Was it a symbol of you in heaven?
All these thoughts keep swirling around in my head.
Is it just wishful thinking?
Love you dad. Miss you forever.