Tuesday, October 14, 2008

The Concept of Death...Baba you're gone

Silent Screams. Tearing through my head.

I can't come to terms with your death.

It was too sudden.

Too fast.

I don't understand the concept.

It makes no sense.

Life goes on.

Despondency fills my head.

Thoughts of gloom so great, I feel numb.



Two weeks have passed since you have gone, and I still remember the explosion in my head when I was told. In that cold hospital room, and the screams of my mother, and the screams of my brothers, and the ensuing despair. Eating at my soul.

I miss you. The warmth of your embrace, your kindness, your love, your dedication, your infinite selflessness.
I love you baba. I still can't understand why you're gone. Its a jolt of utter misery.

I love you. I will always miss you.

Ra7mat Allah 3laik.

7 comments:

Mahmood Al-Yousif said...

My deepest condolences. May your good memories of him never dissipate.

Travis Musicbox said...

You love is very strong. I can feel it. Bless You

SoulSearch said...

Thanks for your comments. I struggle with my tears every day. The worst part is I have to go to work, to drop the kids to school and life just forces me to go on. All I really want to do is crash at home and cry my eyes out forever. I miss him tremendously. But the thoughts and good wishes of the people around me are what's keeping me going. Thank you for your support. It really means alot to me.

Thanks once, again
Soul

Concerned 'Citizen X' said...

My sincere Condolences.
May his soul rest in peace..and may you find peace & closure.

SoulSearch said...

Thank you c.citizen X, we are forced to go back to some sort of normalcy in life. But I think, I will never be the same again. I have lost the dearest person to my heart.
Thanks for stopping by. Your good wishes give me strength.

Bahraini Diva said...

Oh my sweet friend, I am so sorry for your lose & I know it's not the words that helps you through this hard time, I can imagine the deep sorrow ,but I will share with you one thing that helped me through the same experience... Talk to him in your heart.. & keep reading the Quraan
- My love to you & your family
Maha.

SoulSearch said...

Thank you so much B.Diva for your comment. I miss him tremendously. I find comfort when I visit his grave, but you know how tradition is. People keep telling me not to go bcoz I'm a girl!!! I keep trying to understand how he went so fast. Its so hard...
But its good wishes such as yours that keep me going, thanks for stopping by...
Love,
Soul