Have you heard of the phrase: "A slave to the job", well, that's how I feel right now. I'm at a point where I have had it with work. I feel I have come to a breaking point, where I'm seriously thinking of making greeting cards for a living or something kinky like that! 
People rant and rave about Labor Rights, what about Children's Rights, when a mother works every single day from 8am to 5pm and by the time she gets home its 5.30 or 5.45pm, her kids are getting ready to call it a day. What do I say to my 2 year-old son, who asks me why I leave him every single day? What do I say to my daughter when she tells me she wants to color a rainbow with her? Do I tell them I'm beat, my mind is clouded with all the tasks and responsibilities that I have at work? Would they understand that I'm doing all this for them, so I would never have to compromise their education, their lives, etc...
I miss my kids, my life is passing by and I'm in the office worrying about other trivialities while I'm missing out on wonderful moments with my children. I love you A & S.
Love,
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They'll understand eventually that you sacrificed your time in order for them to have a better future.
At least that's what I tell myself every day.
But Mahmood, do you really believe that in the bottom of your heart? I tried to convince myself for the past 8 or 9 years of my life. But it just rings hollow, if we didn't live in a capitalist world, we would be able to share life's beautiful moments together, as a family.
I feel guilty for being away for so long, and feel the resentment coming from them every day.
=(
Peace,
SoulSearch
No need to think twice about it. Find yourself another job (there are plenty better ones out there) and QUIT!
Every day is a waste in that place. Every day brings nothing but more frustration and more negative feelings.
Watch out for your health. We want you up and running, always :p
This women's lib thing is a double edged sword. Sure in some places women have equal rights, many are able to hold high ranking positions and a women's place isn't just in the home anymore. Society is starting to recognize and appreciate what a woman has to offer and what she can bring to the job. But the move towards more equality in the job environment did not translate to more equality at home, at least in our culture.
As a woman, you have to work 40-50 hours at your job and then come home to be a full-time mother and homemaker. So you are juggling two jobs.
In some countries, women are given a paid year off fo child bearing and rearing. In the US, two weeks only and even then you may get fired if your boss hates the fact that you are expecting!!
I am not married yet, but the more I think about it, the more I lean towards more important to spend time with your kids rather than afford better things for them. But that's just me. Either way you look at it, you will have to compromise and sacrifice.
By the way, you're a gr8 mum and your kids are a proof of that. Don't feel guilty, you are more attentive to your kids than many stay-at-home mums I know. Many times in the past, I wondered how you did it. I figured you're like an enegizer bunny, you just go on and on..!! lol :-)
Thanks guys for your comments and feedback. Its true the place I work in doesn't own up to the reputation it has. the hours are crap the workload is crazy, and as in many other places, you are never appreciated. I try to give them all the love and attention in the 2 hours I see them in the day. (OMG, can you believe I only get to see my children for 2 hours a day!!!!!!!!*about to faint*)
Life is a b*tch, and we need to live it to the best we can. I guess I'll just have to work for the next 5 years and then call it quits forever. At least until I finish off the loans that have piled up!!!
I want to be there when my children need me, and I hope they don't resent me for leaving them for so long!!!
Peace,
SoulSearch
Hon, Sometimes quality is more important that quantity. Make the best of those 2 hours and dedicate the weekend to them. And ofcourse there is holidays when u can plan something special. The good we have is the strong family system. Do not worry about your kids, they r healthy, happy kids. Besides, they also have their dad, grandparents, uncles, cousins, etc. You are doing a gr8 job and before u know it they will get older and stay up later :) busy with their own thing :)
Thanks doe. I really miss them. But what do you do when you have to work weekends as well, and stay up to do more work and get a crap attitude when you go to work. I try to pretend to be happy and willing to play along. But seriously, my work is depressing.
I need a vacation.
BTW, when are you coming back?
Peace,
SoulSearch
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