Its just one of those days, when anxiety is taking over, a feeling of of failure is eating at me, life sometimes engulfs you and sucks all your energy out. If I didn't have so many commitments and responsibilities I would quit right now. I wish I didn't have to be dependent on an institution to live, I wish I could have my own business which would generate a decent income, and I can be there for my children, for my family, for myself. I wish I could just stay at home and not have to take anyone's shit or anyone's mood swings.
Life sometimes can be overwhelming, and this whole week has been crap, everyone is on the fast lane to destruction. Everyone wants to climb the mountain and go higher and higher, on other people's back, without a second thought for others. I want to break free from the chains that bind me, I want to breath fresh air and be out in the sun. How many lifetimes does a person get to live but the one he/she has.
I can't stand this any longer. If I was my feelings today I would be a big pile of disappointment, anger, failure, resentment, apprehension, and every other bloody negative feeling in the world. I feel like wringing someone's neck, kicking someone's behind, just anything to vent this huge feeling of anger in me.
Ok, that's better.